We just had to. Bringing you home will not make you feel better. The vet said that if she doesn't undergo treatment soon, there will be a higher risk that she might not make it. Now THAT made a huge lump in my throat appear.

She has 3 problems appearing at the same time. ALL TOGETHER. One of them being a very serious problem and the most difficult to treat. She has confirmed liver and pancreas problems and she MIGHT be a diabetic. The vet said if she is, she'll have to live on medication for the rest of her life. A problem with the pancreas is the most difficult to treat. At this point, I wouldn't mind if Meow had just one of the three. Then it won't be so serious. But the fact of the matter is that she has ALL THREE.

So now Meow is being hospitalized for 2 to 3 days. The vet needs to monitor her sugar level to confirm whether she really is diabetic or not. God, I hope she isn't. If not, she'll have to live off of medication. I would do anything to sleep with her at the vet right now. I hope she's not caged beside a noisy dog or anything.

Okay now I feel guilty. Guilty for allowing her to eat a lot until she's overweight. I can't help to feel that it is my fault that Meow has to face all of this now. My fault that Meow has to stay there with noisy dogs. My fault that she was shaking like a leaf when we left her with the vet. All I want is for her to make it and live a long life. That's all.

Oh God, please please please take care of her. Please.

Shit I'm crying.